Dec 31

2013 Farewell – Welcome 2014

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2013-14As I reflect upon the past year, I have a swell of emotions that come to the surface. I have laughed (a lot), cried tears of joy, and tears of sorrow and learned more about myself than I could ever imagine. I have realized that I am a lot stronger that I thought I was, mentally, physically and emotionally. I found an amazing job that I truly enjoy, and I am at  peace for the 1st time in a long time.

I have learned that I am a very trusting person – sometimes too much so. I believe in 2nd, 3rd and 4th chances for people, when others would most assuredly give up on someone. I believe in humanity and love. I wear my heart on my sleeve and am not afraid to love. Yes, you risk the chance of getting hurt and getting your heart broken (over and over)…but if you don’t open yourself up to love, you’ll never find it.

I have learned to live in the present and get over the past. If you live your life with anger, hurt and regret, that is what you will always be caught up in. I don’t have time for that or anyone who is set on living their life that way – life is too precious and way too short to live in the darkness. Look at what is in front of you – don’t miss out on something amazing because you are immersed in self-pity and anger. OPEN YOUR EYES – IT’S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!

For me, 2014 will be an opportunity to completely open myself up to all the possibilities that life has to offer – no regrets, ever. I am feeling so excited about the New Year and welcome 2014 with open arms, open eyes and an open heart. Thank you 2013 for the lessons in love and in life – I am a stronger person because of you, but I am not sorry to see you go. LOL.

Happy New Year!

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Dec 31

Goodbye (and good riddance) 2012

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2012 was challenging to say the least. This year brought me sadness, poverty, heartbreak, death and depression. I have never in all my life imagined that I would be in the position I ended up in this year. I have always landed on my feet during challenging times and have never been “down” for that long. Well, welcome to reality.

I dream. I learn. I love. I live. I survive…somehow.

I have been “lost” since January of 2011 and have only now begun to find my way back, to be comfortable with me. I have loved hard and lost even harder. I put myself out there only to be shut down time after time – but you can’t give up. The only way to succeed is to challenge yourself, and to continually put yourself out there, no matter how much it hurts. I lost the love of my life, my puppy Molly, who loved me unconditionally, as I did her. Such as sweet baby girl who brought me so much joy and love. The first dog I ever had…and I gave my heart away completely to her. Rest in peace my sweet puppy. I was laid off and it took 6 months get another job – never happened to me before – ouch. I considered other routes to end the continual pain, but thank God I did not succeed.

2013 is the next opportunity I have to get back on track…never give up. I am grateful for the blessings I have and the people in my life that have shown me true friendship and love. I can only say that I will not disappoint in the coming year. 2013 watch the hell out because I am going to succeed and I am going to survive, and I will love and be loved again.

I bid adieu to 2012 and welcome 2013 with open arms.



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